Overcoming the Complacent Weight

I created this blog to materalize a balance of my weightloss journey. I figured by socializing with those of my like venture and seeing my progress in black and white, I would be able to be more accountable for my actions and not to mention possibly help a fellow dieter along the way!

I, my dear reader two years ago weighed in as 360 pounds. I put off posting this blog for the longest because just to have to acknowledge my old weight makes my stomach turn, but the positive effect is that it keeps me focused on to NEVER go down that road again.

so how did I get this fat in the first place?

Like most who are full figured, it was my way of life since a teenager. I've always maintained a nice solid frame and never became what most would say extremely obese, but after leaving home and going out on my own my weight ballooned. Looking back I think the stress of leaving my parents on not so good circumstances, and the fact I hardly cooked for myself didn't help either. I was eating take out 75 percent of my week, and was getting home cooked meals only if I was at a friends house.

Fast forward, I had a really nice Office Manager job with a reputable furniture retailer in 2007. My manager didn't like me, to say the least, because I think my ambitions to really understand my position and to seek help from other office managers so that I KNEW how to perform my job effectively bothered her. She was what most would consider a dumb manager, not really knowing her job herself so who was I to make that known to everyone else? Needless to say, I came to work one day and was terminated because if I recall her wanton story correctly- I couldn't retain information..HA..hilarity right?

I slipped into this FOOD DEPRESSION. I kept eating all day while on unemployment and as my clothes got tighter, I simply bought bigger ones. It got to the point I would only have ONE pair of jeans that were flattering, and would wear them if I ever went out, but at home stayed in moo moo's. Sheesh, its as though I became a cat lady without the cats! lol.

A friend at the time joined a gym and said I should go. I never thought of joining the gym before but I figured heck why not. It was hard, I generally could only do 20 minutes on the treadmill and that's it, but after about four months I lost 30 pounds! I was so so happy and couldn't wait to ditch all my size 28 jeans! But then something happened..........

I LOST FOCUS

I started college classes and between that and limiting my workouts to two days a week my weight simply maintained itself. I have NO IDEA why I stopped dieting. I guess because I was so elated that I made one achievement that I couldn't see pushing myself to the next goal. I attended the gym but my weight would only fluctuate between three and four pounds at a time.

After moving to Wisconsin, I still worked out but became annoyed at not being able to stay on track! Last year I ballooned back to 342, but lost it all again thank God! I am now 324 pounds as of this morning. I have been consistently dieting since this February and have lost around 20 pounds. I've had alot going on emotionally between this time so the weight may have came back at some points and then I took it off again.

Due to strategy, and having my body learn to eat small portions all over again I now work out at least 4 days a week. When I'm bored in the gym, I take three mile walks at a beach near my home and now I can do it without taking a break! My stamina is through the roof and it feels awesome!

A recent pic...this was a few months ago but so far so good!

I plan to check in a few times a week to update my stats, daily menus, temptations and much more. Please feel free to follow and I will in return!

See you on the scale :)